I will get better

I made some resolutions, and well I can’t say they are resolutions but I decided to do something so that they help me in my life. I wish I could follow it though, I really want to do these things but somehow I can’t get down to doing these things and believe me, these things are simple things. I actually will be able to do what ever I want to do only if I can do one thing and that one thing is getting up at 7 in the morning. For some reason I just cannot, even though the alarm rings, I get up, switch it off and sleep again and get up an hour and a half later.
DO I really have a will to do these little things? I think I do but then again, if I had a will, they say that id find a way to do it.

My life is pretty interesting actually, I want some things that are different but at times I really wonder if ill be happy if i get want i wish for. I think i can be happy, but ill have to change my attitude to life considerably. I am a pessimist, not an extreme pessimist but i think i am one. I also do not like to hurt people that tell me that im doing something wrong even though i don’t see the wrong in what i want to do, this part of me i really hate and i need to change it pretty quick. I learnt so much for a few people in my life, its really nice actually to realize how people think and react to situations in life.

All of us want to get successful, getting successful means that we will get richer and getting richer means that .... whatever. But many people believe that the rich are really spoilt. I thought that too, but now I’m really confused about it. I know that some rich people can be really warm and nice but these people can be bad if they want to be. Why is it that we all want to get rich when we know that that will eventually spoil us?