Please change for yourself...

Why is it so difficult for me in this new place? Work is not a problem, food is not a big problem, people are not a problem, my cousins are really nice to me, I got a Goan roommate whose company, the place where we are staying isn't the best but it isn't too bad either and its very nicely located, its in a very active area and I love activity…. BUT Is that one person affecting my whole life i.e. every other part of it that doesn’t even have to do with that person? How can a person be like that? I really wonder…specially when I feel that when a person goes through hardships in life, he or she definitely doesn't wont others to go through the same.

Are you a mean person?
The way you treat people that would do practically anything for you and the way you treat people that you know truly love you, shows the kind of person that you are.

Are you selfish and/or self-centred?
The mere fact that you do things only for yourself, you use people for your own convenience, you mislead people and ultimately trick them into doing things that will benefit you, use a sweet smile and nice ways to show people that you are so naïve and innocent….well, and there's more to it…its not just me who has realised this. Your best friend from your past called you a "Selfish b…." and you stopped talking to him coz he called you that, Your friends in college tell you that for you its "Your way or the highway", you live in your own little perfect world ….your palmist told you some years ago that your behaviour may be the reason why your bf will not be able to handle you and may break your relationship…your ex once actually told you that he'd hit you when you made him mad for whatever reason (not excusable on his side though, u cant hit a girl)…..you never do a thing for a person that you claim to love if what you are expected to do wont benefit you….you never got along with other girls from the very beginning for reasons only you know…..because of you, another ex of yours actually kinda wasted a year or more of his career…..you treated ur ex like sh*t when he would get up at 4 AM to come and just see you every single day….and you used your current bf very nicely when he had a car and could take u around and give u a good time, he did so so much for you and he truly loves you. But now that he's actually changed his life and taken a risk that he really didn’t have to, but just to be closer to you and to get more successful in his future, you are keeping him well in his place and treating him like a puppet, the strings of which are in your hands only…

Doesn’t all this show you what kind of person you are turning into? Please change for yourself first and then for the people that are and will be in your life, for the people that care about you…The choice to change is yours only, your not being forced, you will benefit the most from it…..

"True happiness comes when making the people you love and truly care about, happy"…. not by thinking only about yourself and your needs...