22OCT08 : Blogging when depressed

Only when things get bad do we realise what we had and how nice it was back then. Unfortunately, at the time, we still seem to be unsatisfied and want more. They say the grass is always greener on the other side, well, I've actually lived that saying and trust me, the grass only seemed greener on the other side. Really speaking, it was not. I actually changed my entire life without really checking things out properly and not am I regretting it?

Well, I don't think I'm regretting it totally because this experience has taught me alot but one thing is for sure, I could definitely do without this change and I would have been happier. What can I do to make it change for me? I know that I should be proactive and make things change rather than waiting for things to change by themselves. The real question is what do I need to do to make things change. Seems like I am doing things but nothing seems to be working, atleast not at the moment. Yeah, books and psychologist say that we should be positive and believe and only them things work in our favour but it is difficult to be positive when you see nothing positive happening. Maybe they are happening and I just don't see them, probably just taking them all for granted.

Am not well the last couple of days and besides that, my roomie has gone home so I alone. Days have gone by quite ok still but this thing of getting into low and high spells has to change, its not good for me.

Positive thing this week...the girl I have a slight crush on is back. Just typing that made me feel a lil better right now :)

Life will get better, I believe in that.

Brgds, L