Blogger:: 23rd OCT 2007.... her birthday

Was the first time I was there in person for her birthday….only a couple who are her first cousins and I was invited for dinner to her place….the family was nice, her dad was the same as he always is, her mum was sweet and her cousins too were really nice. But she still seems like she's troubled or has something on her mind, she hardly spoke to me, spoke only when I made an attempt to speak to her, she didn’t even come to sit near me but anyway maybe that would have seemed a little awkward with her family around, but then again, they never came in the way when she would come down to Goa for holidays…

I do not know if she has lost interest or she feels that I'm not good enough (super rich, funny, well built) or someone else has got her attention or she is just rebelling coz her parents seem to not have a problem with me. It’s a month that I've come here now, and I've not even got to spend time together other than on the first day I met her. If she really wanted to, she could definitely make time for me. She seems to be disgraced by me coz she doesn't want people in her life to know me…now that’s just odd, she either doesn't respect me at all or she is hiding something….

She is hurting me, intentionally or unintentionally I still have not figured out but I will soon…I really didn’t see this side of her in the last two years that ive know her. Is she the kind of person that just uses others and kicks them once she's done? :(

Tue, 9 Oct 2007 11:17:03: A new beginning..

Its been 17 days since I reached this new country…the place I wanted to come to for a long time and now I'm finally here….was this what I really wanted? Well, in many ways YES but in many other ways NO, I guess many unexpected things came up, which I would get to know only on reaching here. The most unexpected thing is how a very special person is made to lead her life… she is a girl and her parents making the rules for her is totally understandable but some things are a little hard for me to accept even though they seem logically correct. But I will accept them with time.

Friends are what I need in Dubai, as of now, I hardly got any, but with time I should get some and hopefully many, coz otherwise it just gets lonely here in this new country… the place which I've chosen to make my life. I really miss my friends from Pune, didn’t think I would miss them so much but now that I'm away from them, I realise how nice they all were in their own ways.
"Change" is difficult, but I believe that in life, everything happens for the best…."Tough Times never last but Tough People Do"