Still searching for answers...

Today i got up really early, something that i thought was impossible was pretty easy actually and i also walked to the gym and back and had enough time to work out, this is gonna become a routine. I need to do it to improve my health and appearance, not that i look bad now, the only thing is that i am thin and this is the way to get around it. I'm a lil unhappy with things in my life right now, why im unhappy i really need to figure out coz this shouldnt continue. The thing is that i was like this for quite some time now, i think i know the reason but maybe thats just what i think and is not the real reason. I need to change my attitude to life, i keep saying this and ill say it again and again untill things change. My life really isnt that bad actually but i still want a lil that could make such a difference coz i feel all the rest tht i have and and put to productive use is just getting wasted on something so bloody stupid. This thing should really not come in the way of my career but from the looks of it, i cant be really sure what is gonna happen. Anyway, i used to say this and ill say it again, the Lord is the strenght of my Life, in this will i be confident

so so nice

The 19th, 20th and the 21st of Jan 2007 were extremely nice days, i went to Bombay for the weekend to .... I'm so glad I went there, and the best part was that everything felt so right, it could not have been better.

I will get better

I made some resolutions, and well I can’t say they are resolutions but I decided to do something so that they help me in my life. I wish I could follow it though, I really want to do these things but somehow I can’t get down to doing these things and believe me, these things are simple things. I actually will be able to do what ever I want to do only if I can do one thing and that one thing is getting up at 7 in the morning. For some reason I just cannot, even though the alarm rings, I get up, switch it off and sleep again and get up an hour and a half later.
DO I really have a will to do these little things? I think I do but then again, if I had a will, they say that id find a way to do it.

My life is pretty interesting actually, I want some things that are different but at times I really wonder if ill be happy if i get want i wish for. I think i can be happy, but ill have to change my attitude to life considerably. I am a pessimist, not an extreme pessimist but i think i am one. I also do not like to hurt people that tell me that im doing something wrong even though i don’t see the wrong in what i want to do, this part of me i really hate and i need to change it pretty quick. I learnt so much for a few people in my life, its really nice actually to realize how people think and react to situations in life.

All of us want to get successful, getting successful means that we will get richer and getting richer means that .... whatever. But many people believe that the rich are really spoilt. I thought that too, but now I’m really confused about it. I know that some rich people can be really warm and nice but these people can be bad if they want to be. Why is it that we all want to get rich when we know that that will eventually spoil us?

Some of the ppl i am fond of at Approva (the company I work at) :D